Needing

This one of those moments when you finally admit to yourself and to the whole world that you are TIRED.

"Pagod na pagod na ko."

I even doubt if that's the right word.

"Sawang-sawa na ko."

Like what I always tell myself tiredness is a normal word. It can be rejuvenated by sleep and relaxation but exhaustion and fed up is a galaxy away from it.

I don't know really, I just can't find convincing reasons to continue all of this. I'm in dire need of a direction.

I don't want to say this because it sounds too mushy, I NEED TO LOVE AGAIN. The kind of love that is not limited to relstionships. I want to love the things that I do, the places I am in. I wan't to feel that surge of ecstacy and probably anxiety AGAIN.

"Tao din naman ako."